To my beloved S,
I'm so sorry I can't give you a proper status but I hope you do understand my love for you is real.
You should know how annoying E is but as much as I don't want to,
I have to stay with E for at least another year.
You should also know these few days I've been spending most of my time with you.
So the reason why I'm writing this to you now is to let you know that for the next 3 weeks,
I have no choice but to spend more time with E.
I hope you can be understanding and I promise to spend all my remaining time with you.
And remember, you are the one I truly love.
Trust me.

To E,
I know you don't like me either.
So all I hope is that you don't give me a hard time if not I'll probably have to face you for another year.
You yourself know that would suck to the max and won't want that to happen.
I can't wait for these 3 weeks to be over so I can be free from you, even if it's just for awhile.
I know I'll have to come back to in another 6 months time,
but I'll enjoy my time away from you while it lasts.
Don't blame me for two-timing you.
Blame yourself for being.. yourself.

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Okay so if you haven't realised,
S refers to Suntec and E refers to Exams.

I'm just too bored at 3am.

K bye.

My flava was expressed on 1:37 AM

It's never nice hearing your own grandmother telling you,

'I old already, body spoil liao.'
'I can't see or hear clearly anymore.'
'Come and visit me more often, I know my time is almost up.'

And the classic scene in Money Not Enough 2 where the mother ask her son consecutively if he has eaten.
Yes that is funny.

But it isn't anymore when your own grandmother does that to you.

Sigh.

My flava was expressed on 1:48 AM

2 days, 2 tests.

2 tests, 2 mistakes.

2 mistakes, 2 failures? :/

Sigh.

My flava was expressed on 4:11 AM

Thanks BI.

My flava was expressed on 4:25 AM

And so,
the glass is still completely filled up.
Not a drip of water is gone.

What am I supposed to feel?

Someone,
tell me.

But I doubt anyone can.

My flava was expressed on 12:02 PM

Sometimes I wish I have a softtoy friend like Aty's Baby Monkey.

When I'm sad, he'll be smiling to cheer me up.
When I'm happy, he'll be smiling to share my joy.

He'll be my best friend and know every single thing that is on my mind.
Best if he could speak and we'll have heart-to-heart chats every night.

Maybe I should steal Jonas Junior back from Audrey someday.

Anyway,
live in peace MJ, wherever you are now.
Hope you will get the peaceful life that you always wanted.
Hide well though, I don't wanna hear news of you getting sued for anything.

K bye.

My flava was expressed on 12:50 AM

Day started off well.
Unexpectedly well. (:
Heh.

Guess keeping it as juvenile as possible would actually be the best.
Simple and sweet.

K bye.

My flava was expressed on 12:24 AM

Just when I thought a new door has opened up for me,
for me to embark on a new journey,
it turned out to be nothing more than an illusion.

But when I wasn't that disappointed,
it just shows how much my heart wants to stay.

But, why?

Once again,
it's Jonas vs John, my alter ego, again.
Inner contradiction.

And until the time that I figure my thoughts out,
everyone else don't matter anymore.
So pardon my sudden anti-social self to most of you,
I just need myself and probably only those closest to me.

On a lighter note,
happy birthday Audrey.

K bye.

My flava was expressed on 12:04 AM

Omg. ._.
Suddenly I feel damn pressured.

I've never been good at Popping,
or at least I was never confident in my Popping.
Same for song mixing.

So maybe I'll have to take up Popping for commbased,
and now my Suntec team is relying on me to mix songs. ._.

Grr, have to breakthrough.

Anyway,
filming today was fun.
Especially when I get to see the different professional equipment used for filming and how filming goes and stuff.
Can watch and learn so that I can apply it during commbased if I'm the videoman.

Okay rephrase,
can watch and learn so that I can apply it during commbased because I'm confirm the videoman.
Anyway,
guess I'll have to look forward to the future.
And probably hope for some nice and unexpected things to happen? (:

K bye.

And maybe,
this could turn out to be my escape.
Calm down and think carefully Jonas.
You have to.

My flava was expressed on 1:04 AM

Video of performance at FB's jam is finally up.
I think we did very well considering the fact that we only practised for 4 days.
As both choreographer and performer,
I'm very proud of every single one of us.
Especially for my choreographies,
I feel that you guys have executed it so well that's better than the choreographer himself.
Heh.
I look forward to performing with you guys again. (:

Let's work hard together and make our next performance even better than this.

K bye.

Anyway,
I don't want to get Popping for comm based. ):

My flava was expressed on 2:25 AM

Top16 tomorrow.
That's all I ask for.

:/

My flava was expressed on 1:19 AM

Finally sent my laptop for repair today.
Went all the way to Adelphi alone again,
for some weird reason there's still warranty when I bought my laptop for more than 1 year already.
Had lunch at Funan, food was quite nice and cheap. I like.

MRT ride back was quite screwed because there was something wrong with the tracks and we were stopping every 5 seconds.
Some idiots around me even thought it was a terrorist attack. -.-

Now I'm using Daddy's Fujitsu laptop,
but still missing my own one.
Especially when almost everything is customised,
like my MSN, Firefox, etc.
Can't wait to get it back.

I totally lost my LA.
I know it's gone when I listen to the usual songs or instrumentals that I used to practice LA to,
and I can't seem to do anything to them anymore.
It's not about the control, but it's about how I used to feel the songs and dance to them.
It's totally gone..
Sigh.

Guess I'll embarrass myself again at the battle on Saturday.

My flava was expressed on 12:14 AM

Life totally sucks when your laptop is spoilt.
Using my brother's laptop now. Heh.

Luckily I got back my external hard disk and backed up all my files before my laptop go totally crazy, and now I can't even turn it on.
Pfft.

Went to Adelphi today only to know the ASUS shop is only opened from 11-1. -.-
Like wtf you open your shop for only 2 hours, might as well don't open right.
After that went to Penin to walk around.
Felt like buying something so I bought this Ahbeng/Matrep looking shirt, just for the fun of it.
Sheesh, waste money.

Went back Tampines to meet up with Suria, Chansee, Veron and Ah J.
Accompanied them to Song&Song and then to LJS for dinner.
After that we went to arcade to play.
Damn long never play in the arcade already.
Played DDR with Suria and lost to her twice. -.-
She's just lucky. HAHA.

Siaaaaaaaan,
can only send my laptop for repairs on Monday, which means all the way down to Adelphi alone again.
And I don't know how long it'll take to be done.
Best part is, I don't even know if there's still warranty.
If there isn't, I'll probably have to wait for Dad to come home, which is like 1 week later,
then ask him to either buy me a new one, or give me money to repair.
Which means, no laptop for probably another 2 weeks or so.
And my brother is always not home, so there isn't any laptop for me to use.
SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAN.

How how how? ):

K bye.

My flava was expressed on 11:49 PM

Omfg,
my laptop just ninja-ed me in the face by turning all purple-ish before shutting down.. TWICE.

I need my external hard disk now to back up all my stuff.
But where is it?! :(

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