Sometimes I really wonder why.

Wrong decision 2 years back,
and now I have to pay for it.

It's either I stick to the original plan,
or I do something different, for myself.

I used to think I could make decisions quite easily because I could easily accept the consequences of the decisions I chose.
But when it comes to something so big,
I really don't know.
And I don't want to make my family disappointed.

Every night I tell myself,
'fuck another day wasted without deciding.'
But it's not something that can be decided just in a day.

I need time to think and decide if I change everything and change all the things I'm required to do,
but I need time to do the exact same thing that I'm required to do now which I don't want to.

Contradictory.

Hopefully some tutor or probably Chan can give me some adequate advice.

My flava was expressed on 4:03 AM